Again,

Best sisters ever?
No questions about it!
And, I started getting things together for my parents' box and my sisters' box today! Hopefully I can get them out by the middle of next week but there are some things I still wanna buy and put in them so hopefully I can find them soon and get them out!
I'm gonna do dinner right now but I'll probably post again later tonight. Nothing's going on tonight :/

Positive-People know how to tug on my heart and make me feel loved! It just gets better everyday!

Selection of Photos!

Today is a Day

It's days like these that really make me miss UCM.
I have class from 10-11, seminar for another hour and absolutely nothing for the rest of the day. No club meetings happen, they all happen on Wednesdays, imagine if I had to do that back at UCM. Shit. I'd have no life Tuesday, preparing, Wednesday, meetings and class, or Thursday, catching up.
But, I've just been hanging out in my room, avoiding napping so I can get to sleep easily tonight so I can get up tomorrow.
Dear sisters, I'm hearing about some super amazing things that you're do within the chapter. Internally and externally. I'm so proud of each and every one of you and am so blessed to be able to call you sisters.
Mom&Dad, Talking to you daily is sometimes my only release each day. Without that, I would definitely be certifiable by now. I love you both more than you know!
UCM Fam, I'm missin' always runnin' into one of you and then finding something to do or somewhere to go immediately afterwords. You people are my rock some days and I can't ever thank you enough for that.

Positive-Class wasn't too too bad today. Lol.

Amazing Feeling

So I just posted some new pictures from a night out last week and I've gotten, literally, 6 comments on the picture and about how good I look.
Now for those of you who know-me know-me, you know I have some body image issues as far as my weight is concerned and to hear this comments and to be told I'm lookin' great and that it looks like I'm losing a little is an amazing feeling!
I appreciate all of you so much for your support! Looking at my England pics! All the comments about the fun I'm having and all the well wishes!
I couldn't ask for better friends, sisters, and family!
You're all amazing and I can't wait to come home to you and tell you about all my amazing experiences and, hopefully, if I am losing weight, it continues on :)

-Positive-Please read above :)

To Whom It May Concern

*Forewarning, this will not be nice*
I'm 21 years-old, sober, and grown. I can fully handle myself and situations that I decide to take part in so telling me multiple times to go inside or stop when I'm clearly trying to calm the situation and starting to succeed at doing so. I'm only going to get pissed off and be rude because I'm a grown woman. You don't need to tell me what to do. Especially when you're the one not helping the situation.
Please take this into consideration next time you decide to become damn near belligerent and speak to me like that.
Thanks in advance.

Positive-Found an amazing chicken and pizza place that also happens to be super cheap!

Class Has Begun

So as much as I missed being the classroom, I could really be okay with no classes this semester. I I'm gonna dig two of my classes out of the three, however, in only one class am I gonna dig the assignments, of which there are literally like 2-4 per class, and that blows. I love school and I don't like the way they do classes around here.
Oh well. Live, learn, and experience :) I'm sure once we get into actual class time versus just syllabus day, it will work out a lot better and I will dig it more because I literally love to learn, nerd, I know.
So I have no classes tomorrow, but I am going to Colchester tomorrow!!, so tonight I'll be heading out for some night life but I'm honestly ready to stay in a little bit. Call me lame, but going out legit every night isn't really my scene. Oh well I suppose.
I do head to Colchester tomorrow, on my own, so we will see how this train ride and switching in London goes! Lol. I will be in London one day this weekend though and I could not be happier to be going and getting away from campus for a while.
I'm not going to lie, at UCM, I'm totally fine with always being in the Burg and being on campus, and here, I can't wait to get out and go somewhere.
I think it's a combination of the fact that here is the perfect opportunity to travel and go somewhere new and do something different and the fact that I can't handle being around a particular person because I always get in a negative mood around them but it's irrelevant because I'm in fucking England and I'm going to have the time of my life, which I have been thus far, and focus on class and traveling and staying happy and positive as always :)
I got a package from Miss Lydia today! That girl is the best. She made my day! I thought I was just getting my birthday present, which is the sweetest passport cover ever!, but she sent me all kinds of awesome goodies :) Lydia, you really made my day with that.
Yesterday, I got my envelope from Christine. She sent me some copies of the Muleskinner that have Chi's story in it. I've got one up in my room to always remember A. Chi and the amazing man he was and B. that I have the best sisters who are taking care of me :)
I found a website, thank God, where I can watch some TV shows. And, Jersey Shore is on the site!! Best day of my life, right? I also started watching Big Brother season like 12 today. Haha. There are 30 episodes posted so I have some catching up! I don't even know if the season is over or still going but at least it's something to do in my infinite amount of down time it seems.
I feel like I do nothing here. I'm an International Rep for the student council and I have three classes a week and that's it. At UCM, although I love it and would not change it, I'm on the go constantly and never seem to stop. So this is very different. We will see if I miss it next semester when everything gets hectic again. Haha!

Positive-Met more new people today!

Trynna Stay Positive

I am trying so hard to be positive and stay that way on a daily basis but since I can't fucking escape you, I get negative and mad and upset and irritated and pissy and it's all because I literally have a hard time standing you.
And ya know what, stop being selfish and rude, and maybe things would change but that would require you growing up past the age of 15 and apparently you're not capable of that.
Ugh.

Dear Readers,
I apologize for the outburst but in order to not go either A. crazy or B. off on someone, I had to vent somewhere.

Positive-I just realized how much better my life is than what I give it credit for.

It's Today, It's Today!

Yeah, I got the computer cord in the mail which means posts will now be on the daily. Be ready for that readers :)
Anyways, I had my first class today and aside from the room being the size of maybe 4 empty UCM dorm rooms, yeah you read right, 36 students plus the teacher are in there every Tuesday for HY2084. Sweet.
I walked into class and apparently he heard me speak because he knew right off that I, and the kid next to me, was an American. He kept making references throughout class like, "I don't know how America does it, but..." Or, "I know this might be odd for Americans..."
Um, sir, there's another international student in here and she's not from America but I appreciate you pin-pointing Steve and I out. I'm sure you meant well but next time, opt out please.
I came back and my box from my more than amazing parents was here! My mom always knows just what to send and exactly what I need to get me by :)
After making a trip to the library, which is literally a 3 minute walk fyi, I got my internet working and uploaded all 300 and something of my pictures onto my FB. If for some reason you can't see them or want some e-mailed to you or something, just let me know :)
Now I'm currently waiting until time to go to the Union, check out the festivities and then head next door to The Source, the university pub, to watch karaoke take place :)
This oughtta be good!!

Positive-I got to Skype with Erin today!

I never realize how many people I miss until I sign into FB and see everyone and all the amazing things they are doing! Everyone is doing so good this semester, it sounds, and I can't wait to be home for the spring and see everyone and have a more than phenomenal spring!
Love to you all :)

Positive-Saw ASDA today, which, according to the sign, is the Wal-Mart of England. Haha.

Playing Catch-Up-The appreciative addition

Alright so, being away has really made me realize how much of an amazing support system I have back home. And by home I mean IN and MO. In IN, I have the absolute best parents anyone could ever hope for or even think of. Just ask my friends and they will tell you. The only way to say it is that they are the shit. I wouldn't have even thought about doing this if it wasn't for their love and support and I can't think them enough for being the amazing people, parents, and friends to me that they are :)
I also have a ridiculous amount of family in IN that is just as great! All of my relatives, both in IN and KS and TX and NC :), have been the best! So supportive and with well wishes daily, it's what is the highlight of my day most times!
My friends in IN are also great! My bff Jame and my gay Jimmy mainly but everybody else has also been amazing and so great in seeing how I am and what's going on!
In MO, I can't even begin to think of all the amazing people! My UCM Fam who came together huge when Chi died has been sending me well wishes, thoughts, and prayers for a phenomenal trip. I also have the best sisters in the world and nothing compares to being an Alpha Phi and knowing that I have a huge amount of love waiting for me when I come back. And the rest of my friends in MO are super! So supportive and loving and caring. The amount of love I'm feeling while I'm here is seriously overwhelming sometimes but in the best way ever!
I also have an amazing support team of faculty and staff at UCM who have been amazing during this summer in my preparation for coming here and while I'm here by keeping in touch and letting me still maintain positions to come back to and just by being willing to help me out in any way possible! You're all phenomenal people and you're making my life the easiest it could be while I'm here!
Finally, to my UClan friends and faculty. You've been great in accepting me and in helping me in every way possible! My time here has been more than I could have imagined and it's great! I can't wait for it to only get better and for me to see more places, do more things, and get more involved!

Positive-I'm living my life, the way I want, when I want and everybody is being supportive. When does that happen? Lol.

Playing Catch-Up

So, since I have not been able to post about my phenomenal time in the UK yet, I'll give a brief over view.
Orientation week was just okay. I felt like I learned some but not a ton but I did meet some amazing people and gain a good perspective for classes!
I also got involved :) Surprise there right?! ;) I am one of the international representatives for the international students on the union board! I'm super excited for the opportunity to get involved somewhere new and meet new people and hopefully help in making a difference!
UClan planned a day trip to Blackpool for the international students. The trip was fun :) We went to Blackpool Pleasure Beach, which is an amusement park, and we walked around and saw the Blackpool Tower and got pictures with the ocean and it was great!
The next day, a group of 10 of us went to Liverpool for a night. We did all the touristy Beatles things and saw amazing places and learned so much. We went out that night and the district down there is great! We went to the Cavern which for me was the highlight of the trip, and saw a band play and just had an awesome time being somewhere so historical and great for rock n' roll music!
We stayed at a hostel in Liverpool and it was very nice, clean, and SAFE. So everyone who worried about me staying in hostels, no need to fear :)
We got back Sunday morning and relaxed for a couple days and then headed off to Amsterdam on Tuesday! After it taking forever to finally get to the airport in Liverpool, we got through, had our flight and went to what I think is one of the most, if not the most, amazing cities in the world! The city is beautiful, everybody is nice, and the attractions are the best! Of course we hit up coffee shops, but might I add that I stayed true to myself and didn't smoke while there so I'm still 100% smoke-free :), and did the touristy things like the museums and things, I'll post pictures on FB ASAP, but we also stayed in another hostel, which again was clean, safe, and fun :) and hung out with my flatmate's friend Brett. Brett was great and showed us the most amazing hospitality. He's also a phenomenal musician so check out his stuff! http://www.myspace.com/brettwalling
Amsterdam is a place that I definitely want to try and make it back to before I leave this semester! It's, again, just absolutely amazing!
As for my flatmates, there's Mike from Cali, Lena from Germany, and Andrea from, coincidently enough, NW MO ST. Lol. Everybody's great and we really have a good bond and pitch in a lot. It's a great feeling to live with good people.
I'm gonna make a separate posts to talk about "feelings" and all that good shit. Lol.
So if you have questions or wanna know more about any of the things I've done, PleasePleasePlease comment :)

Positive-I'm in England! That's totally enough.

Dear Readers,

Or lack thereof :)
I apologize for my lack of posts. But, well, no it's my fault.
I forgot my laptop charger in the States and it is currently in a box that will get to me in the next couple of days, while I'm in Amsterdam.
So....I will soon be posting a ton to catch everybody up on what's been happening!

Positive-Even though I miss my parents, friends, sisters, and UCM fam more than words can even begin to explain, it has made me appreciate everybody, what they do for me, and how they make me feel that much more.

Make or Break

This does not make or break me.
It does not define me in any way, shape, or form.
It will not hinder me.
Although it will alter me for the better.
I can only move forward and not dwell on the past.
God has given me a lot to handle this week and if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
I have grown stronger and much more confident in myself, my abilities, and everything I stand for this week.
And, I know what I deserve now.
And, I'm no longer settling.
Get ready for a new, even more positive, outgoing, and optimistic attitude.
That 'Beth spirit' is here to stay!

Positive-New glasses, new APhi hoodie, new external hard drive, and pictures to take overseas all in one day!