From today I will be getting on a plan to fly home.
It seems like it's too soon.
But at the same time, I'm so ready to be back to normal life.
Despite that this semester has been amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Be prepared for more posts that re heartfelt because with the end being so near, Imma get mushy!
:/
Positive-Life is great :) #PointBlankPeriod
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Beautiful
Despite all the bad shit that has happened and the fact that I couldn't be with my family, I have had more support and love this past week than anyone could have ever imagined. My family is literally the best and no one can dispute that in the least. I have an extended family in my friends and sorority sisters that has turned up and turned it out for me this past week and I have an even bigger family that encompasses UCM that I couldn't begin to prosper without having. UCLan friends, who are becoming my family, have also turned it up this week and been so beyond amazing.
God has blessed me more than I could have ever imagined and I know He and my Grandma Nancy are proud of the young woman I'm growing into and the steps I'm taking to get there!
Positive-Please read above.
Monday, November 22, 2010
I Deal With
Death very differently than most.
It stems back to when my Uncle Larry passed away when I was younger and I didn't understand nor did I want to believe that he was gone forever so I put it in my head that my aunt and him simply wanted the family to get together and that when I saw him, he was going to stand up and say surprise and that we would all just be together and have a party.
Now, obviously I'm fully aware that that's not true, however, it has led to me dealing with death differently. I have a really hard time grasping that someone is gone until I actually see them at the showing/funeral. I literally have the damnedest time accepting that they are 100% never going to be on this Earth again until I see for myself that they are gone.
I'm not going to get to see my Grandma one final time. I don't get to talk to her face to face again. I don't get to give her one last anything.
I've been talking to her and praying all day and have constantly been crying and it obviously isn't really getting any better.
I am, however, realizing that when I get home, she won't be there to hug me and call me her baby. I won't get to have family Christmas with her this year. And I will never have her amazing food again.
I do know that she loved me more than any Grandma has ever loved a granddaughter and that she was so proud of me for doing absolutely everything that I do in life and I know that she knows that even though I can't be at her funeral because I'm in a different country, it makes not a single difference in how much I love her and how much I miss her.
There's a part of me that knows she's pissed because I'm going through this so far from home but I also know that God has comforted her in this new journey just as He is here for me now.
I will never forget my Grandma Nancy. She was a friend. How many 21-year-olds can say that their Grandma was truly a friend? I am fortunate to be able to say this and more than lucky to have had her in my life for 21 years.
She is an amazing woman and I know she is with my Great Grandma watching me and rooting for me every step of the way through my life.
Grandma,
I love you. I don't know why this had to happen while I was away and while I was gone the whole semester so we couldn't talk as much but I think it's partially to show how strong our bond is because I have loved you and thought of you just as often or more this semester than I do while I'm in MO. I'm going to live the rest of my life proving to you that you had an impact on my life and that impact was always showing me that hardwork and love are two things that can get you through life.
I'll always remember you and you have made a huge impact on my life.
This month here is for you because I know you'd want me to be here.
I love you.
Positive-Now, she'll always be with me.
It stems back to when my Uncle Larry passed away when I was younger and I didn't understand nor did I want to believe that he was gone forever so I put it in my head that my aunt and him simply wanted the family to get together and that when I saw him, he was going to stand up and say surprise and that we would all just be together and have a party.
Now, obviously I'm fully aware that that's not true, however, it has led to me dealing with death differently. I have a really hard time grasping that someone is gone until I actually see them at the showing/funeral. I literally have the damnedest time accepting that they are 100% never going to be on this Earth again until I see for myself that they are gone.
I'm not going to get to see my Grandma one final time. I don't get to talk to her face to face again. I don't get to give her one last anything.
I've been talking to her and praying all day and have constantly been crying and it obviously isn't really getting any better.
I am, however, realizing that when I get home, she won't be there to hug me and call me her baby. I won't get to have family Christmas with her this year. And I will never have her amazing food again.
I do know that she loved me more than any Grandma has ever loved a granddaughter and that she was so proud of me for doing absolutely everything that I do in life and I know that she knows that even though I can't be at her funeral because I'm in a different country, it makes not a single difference in how much I love her and how much I miss her.
There's a part of me that knows she's pissed because I'm going through this so far from home but I also know that God has comforted her in this new journey just as He is here for me now.
I will never forget my Grandma Nancy. She was a friend. How many 21-year-olds can say that their Grandma was truly a friend? I am fortunate to be able to say this and more than lucky to have had her in my life for 21 years.
She is an amazing woman and I know she is with my Great Grandma watching me and rooting for me every step of the way through my life.
Grandma,
I love you. I don't know why this had to happen while I was away and while I was gone the whole semester so we couldn't talk as much but I think it's partially to show how strong our bond is because I have loved you and thought of you just as often or more this semester than I do while I'm in MO. I'm going to live the rest of my life proving to you that you had an impact on my life and that impact was always showing me that hardwork and love are two things that can get you through life.
I'll always remember you and you have made a huge impact on my life.
This month here is for you because I know you'd want me to be here.
I love you.
Positive-Now, she'll always be with me.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
I Have
A renewed sense for fun and life for my last month in England!
After spending this last week away from all the negative people that are here in my life and having literally one of the best weeks I've had here, I have a n incredible feeling to make even more than the most out of the last month I have here.
I am the luckiest student studying abroad this semester.
No joke.
I am involved on campus.
I go out twice a week with two completely different societies which have provided me with the best English friend basis I could have asked for.
I have found a best friend here who I know I can turn to once I get home.
I have/am enjoying every minute of my time here.
This last month will only keep gettin' better!!
Positive-Um, read above :)
After spending this last week away from all the negative people that are here in my life and having literally one of the best weeks I've had here, I have a n incredible feeling to make even more than the most out of the last month I have here.
I am the luckiest student studying abroad this semester.
No joke.
I am involved on campus.
I go out twice a week with two completely different societies which have provided me with the best English friend basis I could have asked for.
I have found a best friend here who I know I can turn to once I get home.
I have/am enjoying every minute of my time here.
This last month will only keep gettin' better!!
Positive-Um, read above :)
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Maybe
Filling out a survey wasn't the best options when I'm fuming about the accommodation/international/tuiton fiasco but I think this issue needed to be outted and talked about :)
Here's my response about the services I have used.
Here's my response about the services I have used.
The international office, for me, has made this experience much harder. There was an issue with my refund on my accommodation payment and the finance department was helpful and moved quickly to get me to the appropriate people. The accommodation department did what they needed to but I feel as though their communication was greatly lacking. The international office, however, is the source of this problem and they did not give me all of my options nor did they communicate what was happening in a timely manner so this issue has been dragging on for over a month and is still continuing. Specifically, the problem stems back to Jackie Maudsley and whether or not she legitimately "did not know" because my home university did not tell her or not, I feel like it should have been and definitely could have been handled better, more professionally as well as efficiently.
And now about professors, tutors, lecturers, whatever you wanna call them! And, this was after positive feedback about my other two.
I have, however, experienced one lecturer that has made my class experience with him literal hell. Valerie Smolienko (WorldWise) is not supportive nor have I learned from him this semester. I fear going to class because he is disrespectful and argumentative with students in his class daily and not only does not make himself clear but contradicts himself regularly and has made my experience, with a class that I though I would greatly enjoy, miserable.
And, that's my rant for the day.
Positive-My Bible is super sweet. Thank you cousins!!
Dear UCLan.
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice in studying here considering the tremendous amount of shit the international, accommodation and tuition offices are putting me through.
GET YOUR SHIT IN CHECK!
There's a system of how things should be done and how things are to roll and one of ya'll screwed up and then the rest followed suit so if you could do me a favor and correct all your bullshit, oh wait, you can't because now I have to redo things that I've already done the correctly the first time because ya'll can't do your job.
Fuck me.
I'll handle what your "professional" asses couldn't.
Don't worry.
The 21-year-old who's only lived here for 2.5 months has this on lock.
Geezzzzzzzzzzz.
GET YOUR SHIT IN CHECK!
There's a system of how things should be done and how things are to roll and one of ya'll screwed up and then the rest followed suit so if you could do me a favor and correct all your bullshit, oh wait, you can't because now I have to redo things that I've already done the correctly the first time because ya'll can't do your job.
Fuck me.
I'll handle what your "professional" asses couldn't.
Don't worry.
The 21-year-old who's only lived here for 2.5 months has this on lock.
Geezzzzzzzzzzz.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
It's been a minute
And, for that I apologize. I had my first assignment all semester due last week and I have another due this week. Mer. And, we took a trip to Chorley for Bonfire Night on Friday and we are leaving for Venice on Thursday morning so I have to be ready early because Wednesday is the national demonstration in London and I will be there protesting for UCLan in hopes that the government will listen!!
Now, as for what's been going on. I've been trying my best to incorporate God into my stay more. I have been praying and talking to God a lot more and it has definitely helped. No lie :)
I am getting more anxious by the day to return to IN and see all of my family and to get back to UCM and see my fam there! I miss everybody so so much but it's hard to believe my time here is almost done. It feels like I just got here 2 weeks ago and just crammed in a lot of trips between then and now, lol. I love it here and would love to come back again some day. So I know I will :)
I am staying involved on campus and offering myself up to more organizations for more things in this last month and a half of time here :) It makes me feel a lot more at home to continually meet new people and be doing things.
I have a trip to Venice this weekend which I am stoked for. And, Grandpa, I will be eating some pizza from there since you told me I have to try it :)
My group for one of my classes will be going to Scotland, on our own accord, to celebrate that our event for that class is done seeing as the tutor is a twat and shouldn't be allowed to speak to people let alone try and teach students.
Also, Iris, Courtney and I are planning to go to London the first weekend in December and stay for two nights! I'm very excited to finally be going after allllll this time but I think going in December will be best because I think it will be beautiful. Assuming that Christmas things are up. Haha.
Well, I know it was short and it has been a while but I have things to do now :/ I did post, after counting, over 300 pics on FB today so check those if you can :)
Hopefully I can focus on posting more :)
Positive-I'm loving my life.
Now, as for what's been going on. I've been trying my best to incorporate God into my stay more. I have been praying and talking to God a lot more and it has definitely helped. No lie :)
I am getting more anxious by the day to return to IN and see all of my family and to get back to UCM and see my fam there! I miss everybody so so much but it's hard to believe my time here is almost done. It feels like I just got here 2 weeks ago and just crammed in a lot of trips between then and now, lol. I love it here and would love to come back again some day. So I know I will :)
I am staying involved on campus and offering myself up to more organizations for more things in this last month and a half of time here :) It makes me feel a lot more at home to continually meet new people and be doing things.
I have a trip to Venice this weekend which I am stoked for. And, Grandpa, I will be eating some pizza from there since you told me I have to try it :)
My group for one of my classes will be going to Scotland, on our own accord, to celebrate that our event for that class is done seeing as the tutor is a twat and shouldn't be allowed to speak to people let alone try and teach students.
Also, Iris, Courtney and I are planning to go to London the first weekend in December and stay for two nights! I'm very excited to finally be going after allllll this time but I think going in December will be best because I think it will be beautiful. Assuming that Christmas things are up. Haha.
Well, I know it was short and it has been a while but I have things to do now :/ I did post, after counting, over 300 pics on FB today so check those if you can :)
Hopefully I can focus on posting more :)
Positive-I'm loving my life.
Monday, November 1, 2010
God
Yep.
You read right.
I'm upin' my faith and preparing for a new way of life when I return home. Imma try and tame this mouth, believe it or not, and work-out to feel better about myself, and read the Bible. Bits at a time of course but I started once before and I have decided it's my time to begin again.
You read right.
I'm upin' my faith and preparing for a new way of life when I return home. Imma try and tame this mouth, believe it or not, and work-out to feel better about myself, and read the Bible. Bits at a time of course but I started once before and I have decided it's my time to begin again.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Despite
What people may think about England, just because it's England, doesn't mean there is always shit to do. Unfortunately. My life has been rather uneventful.
I have found my Asian counterpart in Mr. Kevin Chatham and we hang out almost everyday. Walking, shopping, eating lol. The usual. I finished catching up on Glee so I am officially a Gleek.
I have made a lot of friends in the LGBT community at UCLan and it's great to see such a strong and accepting group on campus. They've got a definite ally in me!
This week is homecoming at UCM and I have no doubt my Mules will pull out a win :) I also have a tremendous amount of faith in APhi's candidate Katie Fisher! She's a phenomenal woman and has done extraordinary things for our chapter and no matter what happens this week, she's our homecoming queen :)
I'm really starting to get a good grip and who sincerely cares about me back at UCM. It's obvious by who messages me and replies when I contact them. Spring should be fun with this new info ;)
This next weekend comes with no plans made but there's still a week for things to happen! I'm hoping to get in touch with everybody this week and plan a weekend to London for November. Clearly I will be visiting London before I leave, it's just a matter of when. Lol.
I bought my ticket for my spring break trip! I'm flying down to Texas to see my best friend/sister/cousin and Roger and Aiden! Those 3 keep me going sometimes :) Such an amazing family!
A lot of things have been happening back in Elwood and it's making me appreciate living farther away, despite that I wish I could spend more time with my parents. But, it only makes the time I spend with my amazing parents that much better :)
I e-mailed UCM housing about applying for somewhere to live in the spring. I'm still praying to get a CA position. I never realized how much I enjoyed the position and the work until I came here where there is little to no housing system. I miss that job so so much and hope that a position comes open for the spring! I really miss it!! :/
I also e-mailed my douche of a professor today to see if he can help in explaining this assignment he gave us because no one understands what in the hell he is asking for. He literally needs to take classes on how to teach a class. I always get negative about that class :/
Positive-Fun plans this week! Oh, and the first official Greek Week meeting tonight! It's at 3 am my time and I have class the next day at 10 but Imma handle it :)
I have found my Asian counterpart in Mr. Kevin Chatham and we hang out almost everyday. Walking, shopping, eating lol. The usual. I finished catching up on Glee so I am officially a Gleek.
I have made a lot of friends in the LGBT community at UCLan and it's great to see such a strong and accepting group on campus. They've got a definite ally in me!
This week is homecoming at UCM and I have no doubt my Mules will pull out a win :) I also have a tremendous amount of faith in APhi's candidate Katie Fisher! She's a phenomenal woman and has done extraordinary things for our chapter and no matter what happens this week, she's our homecoming queen :)
I'm really starting to get a good grip and who sincerely cares about me back at UCM. It's obvious by who messages me and replies when I contact them. Spring should be fun with this new info ;)
This next weekend comes with no plans made but there's still a week for things to happen! I'm hoping to get in touch with everybody this week and plan a weekend to London for November. Clearly I will be visiting London before I leave, it's just a matter of when. Lol.
I bought my ticket for my spring break trip! I'm flying down to Texas to see my best friend/sister/cousin and Roger and Aiden! Those 3 keep me going sometimes :) Such an amazing family!
A lot of things have been happening back in Elwood and it's making me appreciate living farther away, despite that I wish I could spend more time with my parents. But, it only makes the time I spend with my amazing parents that much better :)
I e-mailed UCM housing about applying for somewhere to live in the spring. I'm still praying to get a CA position. I never realized how much I enjoyed the position and the work until I came here where there is little to no housing system. I miss that job so so much and hope that a position comes open for the spring! I really miss it!! :/
I also e-mailed my douche of a professor today to see if he can help in explaining this assignment he gave us because no one understands what in the hell he is asking for. He literally needs to take classes on how to teach a class. I always get negative about that class :/
Positive-Fun plans this week! Oh, and the first official Greek Week meeting tonight! It's at 3 am my time and I have class the next day at 10 but Imma handle it :)
Monday, October 11, 2010
Phenomenal Weekend
First, let me start off by saying congratulations to my newly initiated baby Phi's! Congrats on embarking on the funnest journey of your life :)
Now, this weekend was absolutely amazing. Like I said in my last post, I was preparing myself for hell since Oxford was literally almost that. This weekend couldn't have been better!
I rode with Pimlott, or Ross, the entire weekend since the mini bus was a bit cramped, lol. I learned so much about English people! It might sound crazy but he really helped me to understand a lot of things English people say, do, and what a lot of things mean so thanks Ross :) P.S. I saw a Defender today and called it but nobody understood ;) Lol.
When we arrived at the beginning of our trip, I was so taken aback by how beautiful it all was! It was so pretty. And that was merely the beginning. We drove farther into the area we were at and saw the mountain we were about to climb. Yep, I said mountain and climb in the same sentence and involving me. We "scrambled" up the mountain and it was amazing! To think that I climbed a mountain and climbed through waterfalls and things is amazing! I'll post an entry with a handful of pictures after this entry.
Climbing was super fun! An amazing work-out and such a good experience. It was so amazing to be a part of and look back on now.
We also went to a waterfall park type of thing, I don't know what else to call it, lol. We walked through this little foresty area and got to the waterfall which was beautiful! It was so amazing to see it so close and be there and see such an amazing area. Might I also add in that Ross and Eliot decided to take a jump into the lake. Boxers&Boots ;) Lol.
That night, we went to our bunk house and dropped off our things and proceeded to a pub for drinks and dinner. Let's just say everybody got their fair share of drink on. It was a great night. We went back to the bunk house where Bear, our mountaineering leader, played guitar and sang and we played Twister and "The Cold Wind Blows..." which is a form of Never Have I Ever and Musical Chairs all in one :) Some good fun was definitely had in that!
The next morning we all woke up, after sleeping until 9 which was nice, and got ready, had a really good breakfast at a little cafe just inside the town and went to a new area to go rock climbing!!!
Again, yes I said rock climbing pertaining to me doing it :)
So, rock climbing, we climbed up to the rock and then Bear, Eliot, and Ross set it up as we checked out the surroundings. And, just a thought for my GS Camp girls, we wore some of the same helmets we wore at camp! And, they tied a figure 8 knot in our rope to climb :)
I definitely wasn't first to go, although I contemplated it, I wasn't feelin' it at the time. When my time came, I felt like I was up there forever but apparently I climbed relatively fast! I only slipped on the rock, never had a "proper fall" Eliot said. Lol. We then hiked up past the rock we climbed and went farther up to see the most amazing view! It was beautiful. Then we climbed back down and headed home.
My body hurt like nobody's business, I've got some gnarly bruises, and ruined a pair of jeans but it was the best experience!!!
Positive-I did homework for the first time all semester today and it felt amazing to do it! Call me a nerd :)
Now, this weekend was absolutely amazing. Like I said in my last post, I was preparing myself for hell since Oxford was literally almost that. This weekend couldn't have been better!
I rode with Pimlott, or Ross, the entire weekend since the mini bus was a bit cramped, lol. I learned so much about English people! It might sound crazy but he really helped me to understand a lot of things English people say, do, and what a lot of things mean so thanks Ross :) P.S. I saw a Defender today and called it but nobody understood ;) Lol.
When we arrived at the beginning of our trip, I was so taken aback by how beautiful it all was! It was so pretty. And that was merely the beginning. We drove farther into the area we were at and saw the mountain we were about to climb. Yep, I said mountain and climb in the same sentence and involving me. We "scrambled" up the mountain and it was amazing! To think that I climbed a mountain and climbed through waterfalls and things is amazing! I'll post an entry with a handful of pictures after this entry.
Climbing was super fun! An amazing work-out and such a good experience. It was so amazing to be a part of and look back on now.
We also went to a waterfall park type of thing, I don't know what else to call it, lol. We walked through this little foresty area and got to the waterfall which was beautiful! It was so amazing to see it so close and be there and see such an amazing area. Might I also add in that Ross and Eliot decided to take a jump into the lake. Boxers&Boots ;) Lol.
That night, we went to our bunk house and dropped off our things and proceeded to a pub for drinks and dinner. Let's just say everybody got their fair share of drink on. It was a great night. We went back to the bunk house where Bear, our mountaineering leader, played guitar and sang and we played Twister and "The Cold Wind Blows..." which is a form of Never Have I Ever and Musical Chairs all in one :) Some good fun was definitely had in that!
The next morning we all woke up, after sleeping until 9 which was nice, and got ready, had a really good breakfast at a little cafe just inside the town and went to a new area to go rock climbing!!!
Again, yes I said rock climbing pertaining to me doing it :)
So, rock climbing, we climbed up to the rock and then Bear, Eliot, and Ross set it up as we checked out the surroundings. And, just a thought for my GS Camp girls, we wore some of the same helmets we wore at camp! And, they tied a figure 8 knot in our rope to climb :)
I definitely wasn't first to go, although I contemplated it, I wasn't feelin' it at the time. When my time came, I felt like I was up there forever but apparently I climbed relatively fast! I only slipped on the rock, never had a "proper fall" Eliot said. Lol. We then hiked up past the rock we climbed and went farther up to see the most amazing view! It was beautiful. Then we climbed back down and headed home.
My body hurt like nobody's business, I've got some gnarly bruises, and ruined a pair of jeans but it was the best experience!!!
Positive-I did homework for the first time all semester today and it felt amazing to do it! Call me a nerd :)
Friday, October 8, 2010
UPDATE
It's been a minute since I've posted but that obviously means that nothing too amazing has happened here in jolly ole' England since I last wrote :)
I do, however, leave tomorrow morning to go hiking all day at the Lake District tomorrow. It's another Give It A Go trip so let's please pray that it's nothing like Oxford or I will have visited hell twice in a week and personally, I don't really wanna return!
Positive-I just Watched 'Notorious' and that is now one of my favorite movies. Amazing. I highly suggest it!
I do, however, leave tomorrow morning to go hiking all day at the Lake District tomorrow. It's another Give It A Go trip so let's please pray that it's nothing like Oxford or I will have visited hell twice in a week and personally, I don't really wanna return!
Positive-I just Watched 'Notorious' and that is now one of my favorite movies. Amazing. I highly suggest it!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sometimes
I can't believe what people will believe and not see for themselves.
If you really knew me, obviously you'd know that when I want something, I don't half-ass it or try and make a back-up plan. I only go 100% in for what I want when I want it.
I don't know what else to say for you to take that into greater consideration but me being literally thousands of miles away isn't exactly helping my case.
I can only hope you'll stop being blind by your fear of what may happen because I feel like your reasoning isn't exactly solid.
Positive-I'll make it work.
If you really knew me, obviously you'd know that when I want something, I don't half-ass it or try and make a back-up plan. I only go 100% in for what I want when I want it.
I don't know what else to say for you to take that into greater consideration but me being literally thousands of miles away isn't exactly helping my case.
I can only hope you'll stop being blind by your fear of what may happen because I feel like your reasoning isn't exactly solid.
Positive-I'll make it work.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Epic Fail
Yep, you heard it here. Oxford trip was an EPIC FAIL. Awesome.
So let's recap the day shall we?
First, which wouldn't have been so bad if the rest of the day weren't shit, I woke up at 7 in the AM which is the earliest I've woken up in literally a month, which means I need more to do. And when I walked to the bus stop to check in, it was definitely raining which isn't uncommon in England however, it hasn't legit rained in Preston in days but picks our trip day to unleash. Awesome.
So we get on the bus only to find out that the 143 mile journey will be taking 3.5 hours to drive. Now I know the road system is different here but I can cover 143 miles in 2 hours or under easy. Lol. We are also informed that in England, it is illegal for a bus driver to drive so far without a break so we must take a 30 minute break for him to "rest". Legit. If it were a 8 hour drive, but it's the law, no use fighting it.
So we are 5 minutes from our break destination when the door opens. Now, the bus door isn't like a school bus door, it's a mechanical door so it has to slide out of its spot, out and across to open fully. We assumed that the driver was trying to air out the bus because his window was extremely foggy and you could barely see out of it. Until I smell something burning, like an overworked motor...We find out once we are at the stop that the door opened on its own and that isn't the only problem. The brakes have also gone out. Awesome, right?
So, as we sit in this little coffee shop at this rest area that did happen to have amazing hot chocolate, we sit and chat and talk about how we just straight don't want to go anymore.
2ish hours later, we board the bus to travel 90 more minutes to Oxford. We are beginning to think we are home free when we get on an exit and are waiting to turn but, oh, when the light turns green, guess what bus is stalled on the side of the road? Correct, you are! So as we sit there for 35-45 minutes and ponder our lives, the bus company is sending us another bus to get us into Oxford. This finally happens and we reach Oxford at approximately 3:15 pm. A grand total of almost 4 hours later than we should have.
Now, while in Oxford we managed to see some amazing architecture, because it is literally everywhere you look and happens to be amazingly beautiful, and some gardens and the inside of a Burger King. Other than that, everything we made it to was closed because once we made it through the line at BK, because it was fastest and simplest, and ate it was almost 4 which gave us an hour until stuff closed. Awesome plan to go on a Sunday.
So needless to say we didn't see much. Our time to leave was pushed back until 7, why I do not know considering everything was closed, but apparently it was so that we could have more time to site see. Perfect plan sir. Perfect. So, as we are all gathering to prepare to walk to where the bus is picking us up, we happen to watch an altercation between a 13ish year old boy and an over 30 shop owner who would not give the boy his change, long story, but the interesting part to me is that this shop owner literally grabbed this kid multiple times, grabbed him by the neck as if to choke him 5-6 times and kicked him, yes literally, in the back as he walked out the store and then proceeded to go after him down the street and take the altercation onto the streets. I assumed someone would break up the event or call the police, but to my amazement, not a single sole did. Myself and couple others watched to step in if it got awful but no one ever physically stepped in or called anybody. Had I known what number to call, best believe that man would have been arrested.
So, we finally make it to the bus stop at 6:45 and normally buses are early for things like this so we assumed it would be there shortly. Well, we were wrongo. The bus arrived at 7:45 and we then made our trek home with a 45 minute stop so the driver could "rest".
All in all, we spent 12ish hours on a bus and less than 4 in Oxford. Fucking phenomenal.
However, I did get to know people better and hung out with great people that day, saw some amazing buildings, and did manage to have some good times during the day so I'm chalking it up to experience and leaving it at that. Also, check out my FB quotes section. Mr. Kevin and I added some new ones to that list :) We are catty, but fierce, bitches ;)
Positive-I signed up for spring classes today! Watch out UCM! Ya girl is comin' home!
So let's recap the day shall we?
First, which wouldn't have been so bad if the rest of the day weren't shit, I woke up at 7 in the AM which is the earliest I've woken up in literally a month, which means I need more to do. And when I walked to the bus stop to check in, it was definitely raining which isn't uncommon in England however, it hasn't legit rained in Preston in days but picks our trip day to unleash. Awesome.
So we get on the bus only to find out that the 143 mile journey will be taking 3.5 hours to drive. Now I know the road system is different here but I can cover 143 miles in 2 hours or under easy. Lol. We are also informed that in England, it is illegal for a bus driver to drive so far without a break so we must take a 30 minute break for him to "rest". Legit. If it were a 8 hour drive, but it's the law, no use fighting it.
So we are 5 minutes from our break destination when the door opens. Now, the bus door isn't like a school bus door, it's a mechanical door so it has to slide out of its spot, out and across to open fully. We assumed that the driver was trying to air out the bus because his window was extremely foggy and you could barely see out of it. Until I smell something burning, like an overworked motor...We find out once we are at the stop that the door opened on its own and that isn't the only problem. The brakes have also gone out. Awesome, right?
So, as we sit in this little coffee shop at this rest area that did happen to have amazing hot chocolate, we sit and chat and talk about how we just straight don't want to go anymore.
2ish hours later, we board the bus to travel 90 more minutes to Oxford. We are beginning to think we are home free when we get on an exit and are waiting to turn but, oh, when the light turns green, guess what bus is stalled on the side of the road? Correct, you are! So as we sit there for 35-45 minutes and ponder our lives, the bus company is sending us another bus to get us into Oxford. This finally happens and we reach Oxford at approximately 3:15 pm. A grand total of almost 4 hours later than we should have.
Now, while in Oxford we managed to see some amazing architecture, because it is literally everywhere you look and happens to be amazingly beautiful, and some gardens and the inside of a Burger King. Other than that, everything we made it to was closed because once we made it through the line at BK, because it was fastest and simplest, and ate it was almost 4 which gave us an hour until stuff closed. Awesome plan to go on a Sunday.
So needless to say we didn't see much. Our time to leave was pushed back until 7, why I do not know considering everything was closed, but apparently it was so that we could have more time to site see. Perfect plan sir. Perfect. So, as we are all gathering to prepare to walk to where the bus is picking us up, we happen to watch an altercation between a 13ish year old boy and an over 30 shop owner who would not give the boy his change, long story, but the interesting part to me is that this shop owner literally grabbed this kid multiple times, grabbed him by the neck as if to choke him 5-6 times and kicked him, yes literally, in the back as he walked out the store and then proceeded to go after him down the street and take the altercation onto the streets. I assumed someone would break up the event or call the police, but to my amazement, not a single sole did. Myself and couple others watched to step in if it got awful but no one ever physically stepped in or called anybody. Had I known what number to call, best believe that man would have been arrested.
So, we finally make it to the bus stop at 6:45 and normally buses are early for things like this so we assumed it would be there shortly. Well, we were wrongo. The bus arrived at 7:45 and we then made our trek home with a 45 minute stop so the driver could "rest".
All in all, we spent 12ish hours on a bus and less than 4 in Oxford. Fucking phenomenal.
However, I did get to know people better and hung out with great people that day, saw some amazing buildings, and did manage to have some good times during the day so I'm chalking it up to experience and leaving it at that. Also, check out my FB quotes section. Mr. Kevin and I added some new ones to that list :) We are catty, but fierce, bitches ;)
Positive-I signed up for spring classes today! Watch out UCM! Ya girl is comin' home!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Spring 2011
So, I made out my schedule today for next semester. And for the rest of my time at UCM. As much as this thrills me to know that I am almost over half way done with my undergrad, it scares the living hell out of me.
Next summer, I have to intern, and I've been googling and searching for hours and this shit is gonna be super difficult. I'm behind the curve as far as a resume goes because my high school resume was a big crock, thanks Mangas-Florea, and there are a million internships and more than 10 million people applying for them. Best of luck to yours truly would be greatly appreciated.
I also got my head on straight for classes. After dropping what was sure to be a horrendous film class, I enrolled in an event planning course and after having my first class in there and talking to the prof, I'm thrilled I'm in there! I'm going to learn a lot :)
As for my history course, it's bound to be boring and drawn out and cultural events management, aside from having a dick for a prof, should be good practice and a fun time!
Now, as for my weekend. With Mike and Lena being in Germany and Andrea, thank God, going on trips with her parents all weekend, I've pretty much been alone. It has been super nice to just relax and do what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I also organized the kitchen stuff and kept stuff cleaned. Let's see how long it stays that way, lol.
Being alone this weekend has been really nice, but, last night a group of us went out and to our surprise, the Brits don't do the whole weekend thing. They only go out during the week. Lol. Talk about backwards from what I'm used to!
A group of 4 of us have decided to go to the clubs/parties that no one else seems to want to go to. For example, Sammy wants to go to some kind of a gothic version of techno night but could find nobody to go with her. I love new music, places, people, and especially events so I said yes, let's go! Kevin and Iris were in as well so we all decided to pick a type of club/party that we've been wanting to go to and check out and the 4 of us will go together :) It's nice to finally have a group like that.
Also, I have found a gay for my time here :) Kevin, my dear, you are tremendous!
Finally, and I left this for last for the sole reason that I find it very important, a group of us were approached at a bar last night by a rep from the local health center to be tested for chlamydia. Now, this may sound odd, but after recently reading in Cosmo that more than 1 in 4 women in the US have chlamydia, I was more than happy to take the free test! There is absolutely NOTHING WRONG with getting tested! In fact, it's being responsible. You never know who your partner(s) may have been with and so on so it is simply do a healthy thing for yourself to get tested! I know many people, mainly females, who have been scared to get tested. I told them I'd go with them for support and they agreed and found out some things they probably didn't wanna hear but because they found out, they were able to take care of it before more serious consequences took hold! There is nothing wrong with being a responsible person for yourself and others! Please take this as a PSA if you will.
Positive-Next 3 semesters of my life consist of 12 credit hours per semester!
Next summer, I have to intern, and I've been googling and searching for hours and this shit is gonna be super difficult. I'm behind the curve as far as a resume goes because my high school resume was a big crock, thanks Mangas-Florea, and there are a million internships and more than 10 million people applying for them. Best of luck to yours truly would be greatly appreciated.
I also got my head on straight for classes. After dropping what was sure to be a horrendous film class, I enrolled in an event planning course and after having my first class in there and talking to the prof, I'm thrilled I'm in there! I'm going to learn a lot :)
As for my history course, it's bound to be boring and drawn out and cultural events management, aside from having a dick for a prof, should be good practice and a fun time!
Now, as for my weekend. With Mike and Lena being in Germany and Andrea, thank God, going on trips with her parents all weekend, I've pretty much been alone. It has been super nice to just relax and do what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I also organized the kitchen stuff and kept stuff cleaned. Let's see how long it stays that way, lol.
Being alone this weekend has been really nice, but, last night a group of us went out and to our surprise, the Brits don't do the whole weekend thing. They only go out during the week. Lol. Talk about backwards from what I'm used to!
A group of 4 of us have decided to go to the clubs/parties that no one else seems to want to go to. For example, Sammy wants to go to some kind of a gothic version of techno night but could find nobody to go with her. I love new music, places, people, and especially events so I said yes, let's go! Kevin and Iris were in as well so we all decided to pick a type of club/party that we've been wanting to go to and check out and the 4 of us will go together :) It's nice to finally have a group like that.
Also, I have found a gay for my time here :) Kevin, my dear, you are tremendous!
Finally, and I left this for last for the sole reason that I find it very important, a group of us were approached at a bar last night by a rep from the local health center to be tested for chlamydia. Now, this may sound odd, but after recently reading in Cosmo that more than 1 in 4 women in the US have chlamydia, I was more than happy to take the free test! There is absolutely NOTHING WRONG with getting tested! In fact, it's being responsible. You never know who your partner(s) may have been with and so on so it is simply do a healthy thing for yourself to get tested! I know many people, mainly females, who have been scared to get tested. I told them I'd go with them for support and they agreed and found out some things they probably didn't wanna hear but because they found out, they were able to take care of it before more serious consequences took hold! There is nothing wrong with being a responsible person for yourself and others! Please take this as a PSA if you will.
Positive-Next 3 semesters of my life consist of 12 credit hours per semester!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Again,
Best sisters ever?
No questions about it!
And, I started getting things together for my parents' box and my sisters' box today! Hopefully I can get them out by the middle of next week but there are some things I still wanna buy and put in them so hopefully I can find them soon and get them out!
I'm gonna do dinner right now but I'll probably post again later tonight. Nothing's going on tonight :/
Positive-People know how to tug on my heart and make me feel loved! It just gets better everyday!
No questions about it!
And, I started getting things together for my parents' box and my sisters' box today! Hopefully I can get them out by the middle of next week but there are some things I still wanna buy and put in them so hopefully I can find them soon and get them out!
I'm gonna do dinner right now but I'll probably post again later tonight. Nothing's going on tonight :/
Positive-People know how to tug on my heart and make me feel loved! It just gets better everyday!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Today is a Day
It's days like these that really make me miss UCM.
I have class from 10-11, seminar for another hour and absolutely nothing for the rest of the day. No club meetings happen, they all happen on Wednesdays, imagine if I had to do that back at UCM. Shit. I'd have no life Tuesday, preparing, Wednesday, meetings and class, or Thursday, catching up.
But, I've just been hanging out in my room, avoiding napping so I can get to sleep easily tonight so I can get up tomorrow.
Dear sisters, I'm hearing about some super amazing things that you're do within the chapter. Internally and externally. I'm so proud of each and every one of you and am so blessed to be able to call you sisters.
Mom&Dad, Talking to you daily is sometimes my only release each day. Without that, I would definitely be certifiable by now. I love you both more than you know!
UCM Fam, I'm missin' always runnin' into one of you and then finding something to do or somewhere to go immediately afterwords. You people are my rock some days and I can't ever thank you enough for that.
Positive-Class wasn't too too bad today. Lol.
I have class from 10-11, seminar for another hour and absolutely nothing for the rest of the day. No club meetings happen, they all happen on Wednesdays, imagine if I had to do that back at UCM. Shit. I'd have no life Tuesday, preparing, Wednesday, meetings and class, or Thursday, catching up.
But, I've just been hanging out in my room, avoiding napping so I can get to sleep easily tonight so I can get up tomorrow.
Dear sisters, I'm hearing about some super amazing things that you're do within the chapter. Internally and externally. I'm so proud of each and every one of you and am so blessed to be able to call you sisters.
Mom&Dad, Talking to you daily is sometimes my only release each day. Without that, I would definitely be certifiable by now. I love you both more than you know!
UCM Fam, I'm missin' always runnin' into one of you and then finding something to do or somewhere to go immediately afterwords. You people are my rock some days and I can't ever thank you enough for that.
Positive-Class wasn't too too bad today. Lol.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Amazing Feeling
So I just posted some new pictures from a night out last week and I've gotten, literally, 6 comments on the picture and about how good I look.
Now for those of you who know-me know-me, you know I have some body image issues as far as my weight is concerned and to hear this comments and to be told I'm lookin' great and that it looks like I'm losing a little is an amazing feeling!
I appreciate all of you so much for your support! Looking at my England pics! All the comments about the fun I'm having and all the well wishes!
I couldn't ask for better friends, sisters, and family!
You're all amazing and I can't wait to come home to you and tell you about all my amazing experiences and, hopefully, if I am losing weight, it continues on :)
-Positive-Please read above :)
Now for those of you who know-me know-me, you know I have some body image issues as far as my weight is concerned and to hear this comments and to be told I'm lookin' great and that it looks like I'm losing a little is an amazing feeling!
I appreciate all of you so much for your support! Looking at my England pics! All the comments about the fun I'm having and all the well wishes!
I couldn't ask for better friends, sisters, and family!
You're all amazing and I can't wait to come home to you and tell you about all my amazing experiences and, hopefully, if I am losing weight, it continues on :)
-Positive-Please read above :)
Sunday, September 26, 2010
To Whom It May Concern
*Forewarning, this will not be nice*
I'm 21 years-old, sober, and grown. I can fully handle myself and situations that I decide to take part in so telling me multiple times to go inside or stop when I'm clearly trying to calm the situation and starting to succeed at doing so. I'm only going to get pissed off and be rude because I'm a grown woman. You don't need to tell me what to do. Especially when you're the one not helping the situation.
Please take this into consideration next time you decide to become damn near belligerent and speak to me like that.
Thanks in advance.
Positive-Found an amazing chicken and pizza place that also happens to be super cheap!
I'm 21 years-old, sober, and grown. I can fully handle myself and situations that I decide to take part in so telling me multiple times to go inside or stop when I'm clearly trying to calm the situation and starting to succeed at doing so. I'm only going to get pissed off and be rude because I'm a grown woman. You don't need to tell me what to do. Especially when you're the one not helping the situation.
Please take this into consideration next time you decide to become damn near belligerent and speak to me like that.
Thanks in advance.
Positive-Found an amazing chicken and pizza place that also happens to be super cheap!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Class Has Begun
So as much as I missed being the classroom, I could really be okay with no classes this semester. I I'm gonna dig two of my classes out of the three, however, in only one class am I gonna dig the assignments, of which there are literally like 2-4 per class, and that blows. I love school and I don't like the way they do classes around here.
Oh well. Live, learn, and experience :) I'm sure once we get into actual class time versus just syllabus day, it will work out a lot better and I will dig it more because I literally love to learn, nerd, I know.
So I have no classes tomorrow, but I am going to Colchester tomorrow!!, so tonight I'll be heading out for some night life but I'm honestly ready to stay in a little bit. Call me lame, but going out legit every night isn't really my scene. Oh well I suppose.
I do head to Colchester tomorrow, on my own, so we will see how this train ride and switching in London goes! Lol. I will be in London one day this weekend though and I could not be happier to be going and getting away from campus for a while.
I'm not going to lie, at UCM, I'm totally fine with always being in the Burg and being on campus, and here, I can't wait to get out and go somewhere.
I think it's a combination of the fact that here is the perfect opportunity to travel and go somewhere new and do something different and the fact that I can't handle being around a particular person because I always get in a negative mood around them but it's irrelevant because I'm in fucking England and I'm going to have the time of my life, which I have been thus far, and focus on class and traveling and staying happy and positive as always :)
I got a package from Miss Lydia today! That girl is the best. She made my day! I thought I was just getting my birthday present, which is the sweetest passport cover ever!, but she sent me all kinds of awesome goodies :) Lydia, you really made my day with that.
Yesterday, I got my envelope from Christine. She sent me some copies of the Muleskinner that have Chi's story in it. I've got one up in my room to always remember A. Chi and the amazing man he was and B. that I have the best sisters who are taking care of me :)
I found a website, thank God, where I can watch some TV shows. And, Jersey Shore is on the site!! Best day of my life, right? I also started watching Big Brother season like 12 today. Haha. There are 30 episodes posted so I have some catching up! I don't even know if the season is over or still going but at least it's something to do in my infinite amount of down time it seems.
I feel like I do nothing here. I'm an International Rep for the student council and I have three classes a week and that's it. At UCM, although I love it and would not change it, I'm on the go constantly and never seem to stop. So this is very different. We will see if I miss it next semester when everything gets hectic again. Haha!
Positive-Met more new people today!
Oh well. Live, learn, and experience :) I'm sure once we get into actual class time versus just syllabus day, it will work out a lot better and I will dig it more because I literally love to learn, nerd, I know.
So I have no classes tomorrow, but I am going to Colchester tomorrow!!, so tonight I'll be heading out for some night life but I'm honestly ready to stay in a little bit. Call me lame, but going out legit every night isn't really my scene. Oh well I suppose.
I do head to Colchester tomorrow, on my own, so we will see how this train ride and switching in London goes! Lol. I will be in London one day this weekend though and I could not be happier to be going and getting away from campus for a while.
I'm not going to lie, at UCM, I'm totally fine with always being in the Burg and being on campus, and here, I can't wait to get out and go somewhere.
I think it's a combination of the fact that here is the perfect opportunity to travel and go somewhere new and do something different and the fact that I can't handle being around a particular person because I always get in a negative mood around them but it's irrelevant because I'm in fucking England and I'm going to have the time of my life, which I have been thus far, and focus on class and traveling and staying happy and positive as always :)
I got a package from Miss Lydia today! That girl is the best. She made my day! I thought I was just getting my birthday present, which is the sweetest passport cover ever!, but she sent me all kinds of awesome goodies :) Lydia, you really made my day with that.
Yesterday, I got my envelope from Christine. She sent me some copies of the Muleskinner that have Chi's story in it. I've got one up in my room to always remember A. Chi and the amazing man he was and B. that I have the best sisters who are taking care of me :)
I found a website, thank God, where I can watch some TV shows. And, Jersey Shore is on the site!! Best day of my life, right? I also started watching Big Brother season like 12 today. Haha. There are 30 episodes posted so I have some catching up! I don't even know if the season is over or still going but at least it's something to do in my infinite amount of down time it seems.
I feel like I do nothing here. I'm an International Rep for the student council and I have three classes a week and that's it. At UCM, although I love it and would not change it, I'm on the go constantly and never seem to stop. So this is very different. We will see if I miss it next semester when everything gets hectic again. Haha!
Positive-Met more new people today!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Trynna Stay Positive
I am trying so hard to be positive and stay that way on a daily basis but since I can't fucking escape you, I get negative and mad and upset and irritated and pissy and it's all because I literally have a hard time standing you.
And ya know what, stop being selfish and rude, and maybe things would change but that would require you growing up past the age of 15 and apparently you're not capable of that.
Ugh.
Dear Readers,
I apologize for the outburst but in order to not go either A. crazy or B. off on someone, I had to vent somewhere.
Positive-I just realized how much better my life is than what I give it credit for.
And ya know what, stop being selfish and rude, and maybe things would change but that would require you growing up past the age of 15 and apparently you're not capable of that.
Ugh.
Dear Readers,
I apologize for the outburst but in order to not go either A. crazy or B. off on someone, I had to vent somewhere.
Positive-I just realized how much better my life is than what I give it credit for.
It's Today, It's Today!
Yeah, I got the computer cord in the mail which means posts will now be on the daily. Be ready for that readers :)
Anyways, I had my first class today and aside from the room being the size of maybe 4 empty UCM dorm rooms, yeah you read right, 36 students plus the teacher are in there every Tuesday for HY2084. Sweet.
I walked into class and apparently he heard me speak because he knew right off that I, and the kid next to me, was an American. He kept making references throughout class like, "I don't know how America does it, but..." Or, "I know this might be odd for Americans..."
Um, sir, there's another international student in here and she's not from America but I appreciate you pin-pointing Steve and I out. I'm sure you meant well but next time, opt out please.
I came back and my box from my more than amazing parents was here! My mom always knows just what to send and exactly what I need to get me by :)
After making a trip to the library, which is literally a 3 minute walk fyi, I got my internet working and uploaded all 300 and something of my pictures onto my FB. If for some reason you can't see them or want some e-mailed to you or something, just let me know :)
Now I'm currently waiting until time to go to the Union, check out the festivities and then head next door to The Source, the university pub, to watch karaoke take place :)
This oughtta be good!!
Positive-I got to Skype with Erin today!
Anyways, I had my first class today and aside from the room being the size of maybe 4 empty UCM dorm rooms, yeah you read right, 36 students plus the teacher are in there every Tuesday for HY2084. Sweet.
I walked into class and apparently he heard me speak because he knew right off that I, and the kid next to me, was an American. He kept making references throughout class like, "I don't know how America does it, but..." Or, "I know this might be odd for Americans..."
Um, sir, there's another international student in here and she's not from America but I appreciate you pin-pointing Steve and I out. I'm sure you meant well but next time, opt out please.
I came back and my box from my more than amazing parents was here! My mom always knows just what to send and exactly what I need to get me by :)
After making a trip to the library, which is literally a 3 minute walk fyi, I got my internet working and uploaded all 300 and something of my pictures onto my FB. If for some reason you can't see them or want some e-mailed to you or something, just let me know :)
Now I'm currently waiting until time to go to the Union, check out the festivities and then head next door to The Source, the university pub, to watch karaoke take place :)
This oughtta be good!!
Positive-I got to Skype with Erin today!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
I never realize how many people I miss until I sign into FB and see everyone and all the amazing things they are doing! Everyone is doing so good this semester, it sounds, and I can't wait to be home for the spring and see everyone and have a more than phenomenal spring!
Love to you all :)
Positive-Saw ASDA today, which, according to the sign, is the Wal-Mart of England. Haha.
Love to you all :)
Positive-Saw ASDA today, which, according to the sign, is the Wal-Mart of England. Haha.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Playing Catch-Up-The appreciative addition
Alright so, being away has really made me realize how much of an amazing support system I have back home. And by home I mean IN and MO. In IN, I have the absolute best parents anyone could ever hope for or even think of. Just ask my friends and they will tell you. The only way to say it is that they are the shit. I wouldn't have even thought about doing this if it wasn't for their love and support and I can't think them enough for being the amazing people, parents, and friends to me that they are :)
I also have a ridiculous amount of family in IN that is just as great! All of my relatives, both in IN and KS and TX and NC :), have been the best! So supportive and with well wishes daily, it's what is the highlight of my day most times!
My friends in IN are also great! My bff Jame and my gay Jimmy mainly but everybody else has also been amazing and so great in seeing how I am and what's going on!
In MO, I can't even begin to think of all the amazing people! My UCM Fam who came together huge when Chi died has been sending me well wishes, thoughts, and prayers for a phenomenal trip. I also have the best sisters in the world and nothing compares to being an Alpha Phi and knowing that I have a huge amount of love waiting for me when I come back. And the rest of my friends in MO are super! So supportive and loving and caring. The amount of love I'm feeling while I'm here is seriously overwhelming sometimes but in the best way ever!
I also have an amazing support team of faculty and staff at UCM who have been amazing during this summer in my preparation for coming here and while I'm here by keeping in touch and letting me still maintain positions to come back to and just by being willing to help me out in any way possible! You're all phenomenal people and you're making my life the easiest it could be while I'm here!
Finally, to my UClan friends and faculty. You've been great in accepting me and in helping me in every way possible! My time here has been more than I could have imagined and it's great! I can't wait for it to only get better and for me to see more places, do more things, and get more involved!
Positive-I'm living my life, the way I want, when I want and everybody is being supportive. When does that happen? Lol.
I also have a ridiculous amount of family in IN that is just as great! All of my relatives, both in IN and KS and TX and NC :), have been the best! So supportive and with well wishes daily, it's what is the highlight of my day most times!
My friends in IN are also great! My bff Jame and my gay Jimmy mainly but everybody else has also been amazing and so great in seeing how I am and what's going on!
In MO, I can't even begin to think of all the amazing people! My UCM Fam who came together huge when Chi died has been sending me well wishes, thoughts, and prayers for a phenomenal trip. I also have the best sisters in the world and nothing compares to being an Alpha Phi and knowing that I have a huge amount of love waiting for me when I come back. And the rest of my friends in MO are super! So supportive and loving and caring. The amount of love I'm feeling while I'm here is seriously overwhelming sometimes but in the best way ever!
I also have an amazing support team of faculty and staff at UCM who have been amazing during this summer in my preparation for coming here and while I'm here by keeping in touch and letting me still maintain positions to come back to and just by being willing to help me out in any way possible! You're all phenomenal people and you're making my life the easiest it could be while I'm here!
Finally, to my UClan friends and faculty. You've been great in accepting me and in helping me in every way possible! My time here has been more than I could have imagined and it's great! I can't wait for it to only get better and for me to see more places, do more things, and get more involved!
Positive-I'm living my life, the way I want, when I want and everybody is being supportive. When does that happen? Lol.
Playing Catch-Up
So, since I have not been able to post about my phenomenal time in the UK yet, I'll give a brief over view.
Orientation week was just okay. I felt like I learned some but not a ton but I did meet some amazing people and gain a good perspective for classes!
I also got involved :) Surprise there right?! ;) I am one of the international representatives for the international students on the union board! I'm super excited for the opportunity to get involved somewhere new and meet new people and hopefully help in making a difference!
UClan planned a day trip to Blackpool for the international students. The trip was fun :) We went to Blackpool Pleasure Beach, which is an amusement park, and we walked around and saw the Blackpool Tower and got pictures with the ocean and it was great!
The next day, a group of 10 of us went to Liverpool for a night. We did all the touristy Beatles things and saw amazing places and learned so much. We went out that night and the district down there is great! We went to the Cavern which for me was the highlight of the trip, and saw a band play and just had an awesome time being somewhere so historical and great for rock n' roll music!
We stayed at a hostel in Liverpool and it was very nice, clean, and SAFE. So everyone who worried about me staying in hostels, no need to fear :)
We got back Sunday morning and relaxed for a couple days and then headed off to Amsterdam on Tuesday! After it taking forever to finally get to the airport in Liverpool, we got through, had our flight and went to what I think is one of the most, if not the most, amazing cities in the world! The city is beautiful, everybody is nice, and the attractions are the best! Of course we hit up coffee shops, but might I add that I stayed true to myself and didn't smoke while there so I'm still 100% smoke-free :), and did the touristy things like the museums and things, I'll post pictures on FB ASAP, but we also stayed in another hostel, which again was clean, safe, and fun :) and hung out with my flatmate's friend Brett. Brett was great and showed us the most amazing hospitality. He's also a phenomenal musician so check out his stuff! http://www.myspace.com/brettwalling
Amsterdam is a place that I definitely want to try and make it back to before I leave this semester! It's, again, just absolutely amazing!
As for my flatmates, there's Mike from Cali, Lena from Germany, and Andrea from, coincidently enough, NW MO ST. Lol. Everybody's great and we really have a good bond and pitch in a lot. It's a great feeling to live with good people.
I'm gonna make a separate posts to talk about "feelings" and all that good shit. Lol.
So if you have questions or wanna know more about any of the things I've done, PleasePleasePlease comment :)
Positive-I'm in England! That's totally enough.
Orientation week was just okay. I felt like I learned some but not a ton but I did meet some amazing people and gain a good perspective for classes!
I also got involved :) Surprise there right?! ;) I am one of the international representatives for the international students on the union board! I'm super excited for the opportunity to get involved somewhere new and meet new people and hopefully help in making a difference!
UClan planned a day trip to Blackpool for the international students. The trip was fun :) We went to Blackpool Pleasure Beach, which is an amusement park, and we walked around and saw the Blackpool Tower and got pictures with the ocean and it was great!
The next day, a group of 10 of us went to Liverpool for a night. We did all the touristy Beatles things and saw amazing places and learned so much. We went out that night and the district down there is great! We went to the Cavern which for me was the highlight of the trip, and saw a band play and just had an awesome time being somewhere so historical and great for rock n' roll music!
We stayed at a hostel in Liverpool and it was very nice, clean, and SAFE. So everyone who worried about me staying in hostels, no need to fear :)
We got back Sunday morning and relaxed for a couple days and then headed off to Amsterdam on Tuesday! After it taking forever to finally get to the airport in Liverpool, we got through, had our flight and went to what I think is one of the most, if not the most, amazing cities in the world! The city is beautiful, everybody is nice, and the attractions are the best! Of course we hit up coffee shops, but might I add that I stayed true to myself and didn't smoke while there so I'm still 100% smoke-free :), and did the touristy things like the museums and things, I'll post pictures on FB ASAP, but we also stayed in another hostel, which again was clean, safe, and fun :) and hung out with my flatmate's friend Brett. Brett was great and showed us the most amazing hospitality. He's also a phenomenal musician so check out his stuff! http://www.myspace.com/brettwalling
Amsterdam is a place that I definitely want to try and make it back to before I leave this semester! It's, again, just absolutely amazing!
As for my flatmates, there's Mike from Cali, Lena from Germany, and Andrea from, coincidently enough, NW MO ST. Lol. Everybody's great and we really have a good bond and pitch in a lot. It's a great feeling to live with good people.
I'm gonna make a separate posts to talk about "feelings" and all that good shit. Lol.
So if you have questions or wanna know more about any of the things I've done, PleasePleasePlease comment :)
Positive-I'm in England! That's totally enough.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Dear Readers,
Or lack thereof :)
I apologize for my lack of posts. But, well, no it's my fault.
I forgot my laptop charger in the States and it is currently in a box that will get to me in the next couple of days, while I'm in Amsterdam.
So....I will soon be posting a ton to catch everybody up on what's been happening!
Positive-Even though I miss my parents, friends, sisters, and UCM fam more than words can even begin to explain, it has made me appreciate everybody, what they do for me, and how they make me feel that much more.
I apologize for my lack of posts. But, well, no it's my fault.
I forgot my laptop charger in the States and it is currently in a box that will get to me in the next couple of days, while I'm in Amsterdam.
So....I will soon be posting a ton to catch everybody up on what's been happening!
Positive-Even though I miss my parents, friends, sisters, and UCM fam more than words can even begin to explain, it has made me appreciate everybody, what they do for me, and how they make me feel that much more.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Make or Break
This does not make or break me.
It does not define me in any way, shape, or form.
It will not hinder me.
Although it will alter me for the better.
I can only move forward and not dwell on the past.
God has given me a lot to handle this week and if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
I have grown stronger and much more confident in myself, my abilities, and everything I stand for this week.
And, I know what I deserve now.
And, I'm no longer settling.
Get ready for a new, even more positive, outgoing, and optimistic attitude.
That 'Beth spirit' is here to stay!
Positive-New glasses, new APhi hoodie, new external hard drive, and pictures to take overseas all in one day!
It does not define me in any way, shape, or form.
It will not hinder me.
Although it will alter me for the better.
I can only move forward and not dwell on the past.
God has given me a lot to handle this week and if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
I have grown stronger and much more confident in myself, my abilities, and everything I stand for this week.
And, I know what I deserve now.
And, I'm no longer settling.
Get ready for a new, even more positive, outgoing, and optimistic attitude.
That 'Beth spirit' is here to stay!
Positive-New glasses, new APhi hoodie, new external hard drive, and pictures to take overseas all in one day!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
No Words
Death always makes me hope the same hope.
That the person simply wanted all of their family and friends to gather and will jump and say surprise.
I have never had that hope stronger than I have today.
And to know that it is definitely not the truth and that you are gone is tearing me up.
I've been crying, shaking, and thinking uncontrolably since I found out you were gone.
You were an amazing friend. You accepted me fully from the beginning and were always there for me.
We had some interesting moments and always had good times and I can only imagine what you will accomplish in Heaven before we all meet you up there.
Watch over us just as we will never forget you and remember me when I enter Heaven because God knows I can't go forever without seeing one of my favorite, most trusted, and loyal friends.
I love you Chi.
As a friend, brother, and person.
You will Always be loved and missed.
That the person simply wanted all of their family and friends to gather and will jump and say surprise.
I have never had that hope stronger than I have today.
And to know that it is definitely not the truth and that you are gone is tearing me up.
I've been crying, shaking, and thinking uncontrolably since I found out you were gone.
You were an amazing friend. You accepted me fully from the beginning and were always there for me.
We had some interesting moments and always had good times and I can only imagine what you will accomplish in Heaven before we all meet you up there.
Watch over us just as we will never forget you and remember me when I enter Heaven because God knows I can't go forever without seeing one of my favorite, most trusted, and loyal friends.
I love you Chi.
As a friend, brother, and person.
You will Always be loved and missed.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Carlton,
You always know how to make me feel better and I am okay with our friendship and it being only that because it is what works best for us but it doesn't keep your words of encouragement from touching me as deeply as they ever have.
Positive-"You're too smart to worry so have a good time and spread that Beth spirit."
Positive-"You're too smart to worry so have a good time and spread that Beth spirit."
Sunday, August 29, 2010
My Phi's
My sisters are beyond comparison.
If anyone anywhere in any chapter says that they have better sisters than mine, they obviously have not seen, felt, or experienced the bond that my sisters and I have!
I have been blessed with joining the most amazing chapter that I could have ever imagined.
They make me feel so amazing.
They are such supportive women and with recruitment having just finished up and us receiving 19 new sisters, might I add in hells fuckin' yeah to my girls on an amazing job!, they still tell me that they miss me and wish I could have been there and that some of the girls we are getting wanted us because they knew me.
These women boost my self-esteem and are what keeps me going somedays.
They are the best women and if anyone ever doubts that, just ask me.
To my Phi's-
Your words and actions can not be surpassed or even rivaled. You make me feel so tremendous about myself and what I'm doing and what I have done.
I love each of you and can't wait to go overseas so I can come back and be with you lovely, classy, fabulous ladies :)
If anyone anywhere in any chapter says that they have better sisters than mine, they obviously have not seen, felt, or experienced the bond that my sisters and I have!
I have been blessed with joining the most amazing chapter that I could have ever imagined.
They make me feel so amazing.
They are such supportive women and with recruitment having just finished up and us receiving 19 new sisters, might I add in hells fuckin' yeah to my girls on an amazing job!, they still tell me that they miss me and wish I could have been there and that some of the girls we are getting wanted us because they knew me.
These women boost my self-esteem and are what keeps me going somedays.
They are the best women and if anyone ever doubts that, just ask me.
To my Phi's-
Your words and actions can not be surpassed or even rivaled. You make me feel so tremendous about myself and what I'm doing and what I have done.
I love each of you and can't wait to go overseas so I can come back and be with you lovely, classy, fabulous ladies :)
Monday, August 23, 2010
The Hardest Part
I always have the hardest time staring a writing project of any kind.
A poem.
A story.
A journal.
Writing comes so naturally for me but yet it's painstakingly hard for me to ever begin and commit to the first line, chapter, or page.
So, this is my beginning.
Nothing more and nothing less than that.
Only words on a page, of sorts, confessing what is always hardest for me.
I think I'm going to end every entry with something positive. Even if I rant and rave throughout the entire post, there has to be something positive at the end of the tunnel. A light, if you will.
Positive-My dad and I had a heart-to-heart today. Which is why I love my father :)
A poem.
A story.
A journal.
Writing comes so naturally for me but yet it's painstakingly hard for me to ever begin and commit to the first line, chapter, or page.
So, this is my beginning.
Nothing more and nothing less than that.
Only words on a page, of sorts, confessing what is always hardest for me.
I think I'm going to end every entry with something positive. Even if I rant and rave throughout the entire post, there has to be something positive at the end of the tunnel. A light, if you will.
Positive-My dad and I had a heart-to-heart today. Which is why I love my father :)
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